Jim Wragg
February 22, 1962 - February 9, 2022
 
 
1968

 
Cherished son, brother best;
Kind, athletic, quick to jest;
Loving husband, dutiful dad;
Dearest Bumpa ever had.
The only pain from you we’ll know –
the pain of having to let you go.

written by Jill Wragg in loving memory

2012
 


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The World DOES Revolve Around Cape Cod



What's so special about Cape Cod? Is it the people? When I asked my roommate what is different about Cape Codders, she replied, “what isn’t?” Good answer. 

Raise your hand if you have ever been accused of being a Cape Codder. I have. And I was insulted. Even though I really am a Cape Codder - in every sense of the term. I was born here. I’m a Mayflower descendant; I even worked as a pilgrim at Plimoth Plantation for a spell. I have a black dog. In fact, I once had two black dogs. And, although I don’t own a Jeep, I occasionally borrow one to drive. But, never over the bridge. At least, not if I can avoid it. I don’t have the parodied accent but I did until traveling forced me to adopt a more generic English that, unfortunately, causes some people to believe I am a wash-ashore. At least, until they get to know me. 

Once they’ve spent time with me, they realize I’m the genuine article. I know how to spell Wampanoag and Iyannough, and how to pronounce words like Eastham, forecastle, and clapboard. I know how to operate a motor vehicle in a rotary – without causing injury to man or motor. I don’t wear socks in the summer. I can identify a beach plum. I would never put a tomato in clam chowder, and I could eat a lobster using the bottom of a beer bottle and a car key if pressed. I’m completely certain that there is no bridge to Nantucket. And, while we’re on the subject, I also know the words to that limerick. I’m not above eating raw shellfish and I can tell the difference between a real scallop and a piece of fish trimmed with a cookie cutter. I also commit the two most heinous sins that visitors claim are exclusive to Cape Codders. I give driving directions according to the points of a compass and I don’t follow fashion trends. 

Even in these days of ubiquitous GPS, the directions issue really bothers the visitors. What do they expect? We can’t say “head toward the water”. The Cape is an island. We can’t point to a distant mountain or skyscraper for a reference point. And, although people would understand “toward Boston” or “toward Ptown”, both seem a little awkward, as in, “go 200 yards toward Boston, then turn toward New York City...” But if they’d prefer directions without compass points, the conversation might go like this, 

“Can you tell me where Harbormaster Ellis’s office is?” 

“Yes, sir, it’s in his garage on Bay Avenue.” 

“Okay, what’s the house number?” 

“House number? It’s on Bay Avenue. The name's on the mailbox.” 

“I realize that but there are 147 Ellis families in the phone book for this town!” 

“Well, it’s easy to find. You take Bay Street to Bay Road to Bay Avenue. The Ellis’s house is the fifth on the right beyond where the Nickerson’s barn used to be.” 

Of course, the Nickerson’s barn burned down thirty years ago and has been replaced by a modern home but the lot will always be known as the-place-where-the-Nickerson’s-barn-used-to-be. Maybe we could put up signs that would help those who can’t keep the compass points straight. There’d be signs all over the Cape that read, “This is where the Chase’s horse was hit by a car (circa 1942)” or “This is where Mrs. Howland's sow got drunk on rotten apples (circa 1926)” or “This is where the Alden boys shot a wolf (circa 1894).” But why drag all that history out of a real Cape Codder when you could just suffer through a mere, “go north 100 yards and turn east and the house is the 5th one down on the south side of the road”? We could even issue compasses at the Sagamore Flyover and the Bourne Rotary as a gesture of our good will. 

As for clothes, in my dictionary next to “comfort” and “convenience” is a picture of a casually dressed Cape Codder dodging tourists while strolling down Main Street in Hyannis. My wash-ashore friends find the same picture in their dictionaries under “bourgeois” and “provincial”. Hey, you throw a decent blazer over a graphic tee and you’re good to go. If you tuck the shirt into your cut-off jeans and shake the sand out of your shoes, it’s formal wear. And eau des poissons (that’s fish perfume for you provincials) is par for the course. The fish and lobster in the restaurants aren’t carried there already cooked by magic fairies (the fairies are too busy delivering your packaged beef and chicken to the grocery store) so the fishing and restaurant industries tend to share their odors with the public.

And despite what people think, the world actually does revolve around Cape Cod. While visitors say there’s nothing here except sand and water, I insist that all of the seven wonders of the world are right on Cape Cod. There’s the cliff at Nauset Light Beach, the blueberry patch on _____ Street (oh no, I’m not telling) in Yarmouth, cranberry bogs at harvest time, the pier in Provincetown (but first, take a left and head to ScottCakes!), every sunset of every day of every season in every town, the atmosphere at the Hot Chocolate Sparrow in Orleans, the Chatham Light, the food at The Ocean House in Dennis, the gardens and the carousel at Heritage Plantation, the boardwalk in Sandwich, the fact that Wareham considers itself part of Cape Cod, the Cape Cinema in Dennis, the piƱa coladas at The Brotherhood of Thieves on Nantucket, and the lack of seagulls picking at the dump bins in Yarmouth. 

Maybe that’s more than seven but that just proves my point. Cape Cod is a world unto itself. The wash-ashores and visitors who disagree may simply be afraid to be salty.

Jill Wragg is a retired police officer in Massachusetts.
She can be reached at JKWragg@yahoo.com

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Jill Wragg

A Thing Called "Hope"


The stigma attached to mental illness is beginning to fade. People understand that our brains can be injured just as easily as our bodies. People are quick to offer support to veterans suffering from physical injuries or PTSD, or both. They are also quick to assume that the service dog by my side means that I am a military vet with a war injury, either physical or PTSD, or both.

I do have a physical injury. And I also have PTSD. But I am not a veteran. I did not serve overseas protecting the borders and ideals of our country. I'm a medically retired police officer. I served here in the US, protecting the streets and homes of our citizens.

Several years into my career as a police officer, I began experiencing depression, nightmares, and mood swings. My level of awareness swung between irrationally heightened and frighteningly numb. I felt threatened when people were too close to me. My work suffered. Where I used to be proactive and busy with traffic stops, encounters, and building checks, over time I became reactive, just taking dispatched calls and rarely initiating anything.  I no longer took overtime shifts, stopped caring how my uniform looked, and used all my sick time. My personal life began unraveling, too. I lost interest in things I'd always enjoyed, gave up on working out, refused to socialize, and rarely left my home except for work. To avoid being labeled "weak" at work, I secretly sought medical help but none of my doctors or therapists associated PTSD with police work so I was diagnosed with depression and prescribed medications that actually made things worse. In desperation, I called our "confidential" Employee Assistance Program. The EAP accused me of exaggerating my symptoms and said they'd have to alert my Chief if I admitted to taking antidepressants.

At a police training course in the mid 1990s, an instructor asked us to complete a "test" on police stress. The officer seated closest to me had attended the police academy with me. After catching site of my score, he leaned over and whispered, jokingly, "You should be dead."  He was joking because it was the 1990s. Cops were supposed to be too tough to have emotional reactions to the things they experienced at work. Off-color jokes, drinking, and, most of all, silence were the only acceptable responses to burned bodies, mayhem, and dead babies. So, I sucked it up, managing to keep it together for most of my shifts and then falling apart at home alone.

Years later, a psychologist told me the development of PTSD is like trying to hold a beach ball under water – you struggle to keep it down and when you inevitably lose your grip, the ball explodes up and practically takes your head off. To maintain my social mask, I'd been struggling to stuff a beach ball full of emotions and memories and symptoms under the surface. I finally lost my grip when a cherished police friend was killed in the line of duty (https://uneflic.blogspot.com/2007/05/lost-friend.html). 

The resulting explosion did almost take my head off.

I felt like I was falling down a hill backwards. I was having flashbacks, avoiding public places, waking up a dozen times a night from violent, terrifying dreams, and isolating for days or weeks at a time. Even though I often felt completely numb inside, I could be sparked to irrational anger or to wallowing anguish for no reason, often in the same hour. I was fearful and hypervigilant. I had to carefully censor what I watched, listened to, and read to avoid being "triggered" to a flood of tears, or to unwanted memories, or to the depths of despair, or into a flashback. I turned into a hybrid of a sloth, a snarling rabid wolf, and Eeyore, the donkey from Winnie the Pooh.

When I did leave my house, I engaged in risky behaviors like driving too fast and tempting fate where a rational person wouldn't. Even my core beliefs began to change. I developed trust issues, felt any betrayal viscerally, and laughed or smiled so infrequently that even strangers commented on it. I began to see people in two categories; they were either a threat or they were blocking my view of a threat. I was angry too often – wrap rage, apple core rage, coffee cup sipping lid rage – and I started filling my sentences with profanities. One of my brothers joked that I needed a DEFCON-type T-shirt to warn friends and relatives about my mood levels.

I finally asked my police supervisors for help, telling them that work stress was getting the better of me. They listened impatiently, and then accused me of shirking my duties and looking for unwarranted time off. Feeling lost and abandoned, I poured my feelings into three essays that were published locally and then nationally. Still, except for a note from a supervisor acknowledging my writings and suggesting I call our EAP, no one reached out to me, not even coworkers who were members of our regional police stress team.

In the midst of struggling with the "depression," I was physically injured on patrol. When my Chief insisted on an involuntary disability retirement, the career I loved was terminated against my will.  I was unceremoniously shoved out of "the brotherhood" where I'd spent my entire adult life. My years of service to my community were not recognized with a party or even an official farewell, just a call telling me I didn't "need to bother" coming to work anymore.

The "depression," coupled with forced retirement at age 37 and the physical pain from injuries that wouldn't heal, swamped me. Because of my career, my past contained nothing but monsters and without my career, my future contained nothing, period. My soul felt empty while my head and heart were overflowing with filthy trash that bubbled up from a brimming cauldron. My super power became a total lack of affect and I shielded everyone from my deepest thoughts. I spent a lot of time seesawing between figuring out how to commit suicide and figuring out how to stop myself from committing suicide.  Many friends suggested that I was "just depressed" and needed to "stop thinking about it" because "people are as happy as they choose to be" and when I didn't "just shake it off", they stopped coming around. Other friends, along with family, watched me withdraw from the world – the woman they'd known for years was disappearing. I let them think it was entirely due to the relentless physical pain. Only my dog knew the truth, and when things were at their worst, I hugged her tightly to me while I sat on the floor with a loaded gun and a 3-minute egg timer, tangling my fingers deep into her fur and letting her lick the tears from my face while I told myself that I could pull the trigger when the egg timer went off if I still felt the need.

"Hope" was no longer in my vocabulary.

A few months after retiring, I was finally diagnosed with PTSD. My police department hadn't been supportive when I was a cop, and even though my now former department was aware of my PTSD diagnosis, I didn't receive any support when I was a civilian either. I used my personal insurance and my personal savings for treatment. I attended week-long residential workshops for First Responders at On-Site Academy (https://onsiteacademy.org/) in Massachusetts – twice – and at The West Coast Post-trauma Retreat (https://www.frsn.org/west-coast-post-trauma-retreat.html) in California.  I spent many hours on the phone with Dr. Bobby Smith (http://www.visionsofcourage.com/). I practically memorized Allen Kates's book CopShock (http://www.copshock.com/). I embraced treatments like EMDR, more medications, more therapy, meditation, and a service dog. Those tools helped me better understand and accommodate the PTSD but I came to realize that unless getting hit by a bus could be considered a cure, PTSD can't be cured – it can only be managed.

But living with PTSD is not the same thing as having a life. It's a battle to maintain real courage under fake danger. And being torn between wanting to enjoy memories and being tormented by them is maddening. Sadly, though, when you stuff down the bad memories, you stuff down the good ones, too. When you dull the emotional pain, you dull the joyful moments, too. So, I become an empty shell of the person I used to be.

In recent years, police PTSD has received more attention and more respect. Officers are receiving mental health care from their departments. Organizations are sending officers on cruises and to retreats so they can bond with other First Responders with similar diagnoses. And PTSD is now being treated as a line-of-duty injury. While it's heartening to witness the positive changes, it's been difficult to be excluded from the benefits that seem to be reserved for the newer generation. Recently, when a Massachusetts officer retired from PTSD with an exclusive pension that generously exceeds the statutory standard, I met with the politician who had spearheaded that special pension exception. He said "ALL cops have some level of PTSD," and since I "didn't have your best friend's brains splashed across your face," my PTSD is not remarkable or worth compensation. I left the meeting in tears, chastising myself for thinking that the State would support me when my Town and police department never had.

A year later, a friend sent me information about a new PTSD treatment developed by Dr. Sean Mulvaney in Annapolis.  
(https://drseanmulvaney.com/stellate-ganglion-block-for-ptsd)  After some reassuring research, I was able to get an appointment and a hotel reservation. I drove 9 hours clutching a credit card to pay for Dr. Mulvaney's Stellate Ganglion Block (SGB) for PTSD procedure.

Dr. Mulvaney's professional, direct, and friendly manner cultivated the trust I needed to allow him to stick a long needle into my neck.  After a short period of rest and a couple of evaluations, I was released. I was too distracted until later to notice that my service dog greeted me very differently when I returned to the car but I would have seen it as a good omen. Within an hour of the procedure, I felt different. It was as though my head had been a noisy, bustling, overcrowded room and suddenly the people left, leaving an open, clear, quiet sensation. I felt lighter - not physically but mentally - the way I used to feel when I finally arrived home and dumped the day's events (as well as my duty belt and bulletproof vest) after a long shift. I even felt spiritually taller because the weight my shoulders had carried for so long was lessened.

There were a few minor side effects that lasted a few hours but the changes were extraordinary and immediate. I caught myself smiling for no reason, which was startling. Although I normally went to bed early to escape the chaos in my head, that night I stayed up until I was physically tired. In the morning, I was shocked that I felt rested and that I hadn't had a single nightmare or been startled wake from a single insignificant noise. As I prepared for the journey home, I had a persistent, strange, elusive feeling I couldn't shake. I finally identified it as a thing called "hope," something I hadn't felt in two decades. That's when I realized that my service dog had been treating me differently since I'd had the procedure. He'd recognized the transformation instantly.

At home, I surprised myself by readily accepting the first social engagement that was offered. Friends said they could hear a difference in my voice. I slept through the night again, and again, and again. I continually smiled without provocation. The clear-headed feeling remained; the chaos in my head had settled, replaced by a quiet composure. I no longer lost my temper over trivial things and the sensation of being constantly emotionally overwhelmed was gone. My dogs were confused, and delighted, when I started singing, even when there was no music playing.

But the procedure did not take away the PTSD. It only quieted it. Whereas most of the symptoms used to strike many times a day, they now only occur once or twice a week, some only once or twice a month. And I am still susceptible to the triggers that used to overwhelm me but now my reactions are muted and they pass when I acknowledge them. It's disconcerting but there's peace in knowing the symptoms won't last and there's power in realizing I can better control my reactions to them.

Continual hope has replaced constant thoughts of suicide. I am rested and more focused because I sleep through the night; the few times my Service Dog has awakened me, I assume he sensed a nightmare but I have no memory of one – a far cry from waking almost every night covered in sweat with tense muscles and clenched teeth, unable to fall back to sleep with the nightmare spinning through my head like a movie reel.  In public, I am situationally aware – like a cop – rather than paranoid and hypervigilant, and when my service dog steps between me and others, instead of feeling relief that I have a safety barrier, I feel relief that now I can actually breathe in the midst of other people.

I'm still figuring out which behaviors are continuing from habit rather than from the PTSD symptoms that linger. And I still have to deal with the daily physical pain from the physical injuries that forced my retirement. Discovering how tangled the PTSD and physical pain were is staggering. In some ways, the PTSD masked the pain by upstaging it but in other ways, it magnified the pain by heaping more stress onto my body. Unfortunately, since the procedure, there have been times when I've longed for the numb emptiness of PTSD that veiled the physical pain.

I have always thought that having some control over the PTSD would make me the person I used to be but now I know that I am no longer who I was and that I will never be what I was going to be. And now that there's space in my head and a desire to move forward, I'm starting to build a new me. It is a struggle to figure out who I am, what I will enjoy, what makes me happy, how I will live, and how I will love.

Prince Harry, the Duke of Sussex who is a military veteran and founder of the Invictus Games once said, "You do not have to be defined by your injury or your disability. You may not realize or appreciate it but do not underestimate the incredible impact you are having on those around you, by simply being yourself."

Having the PTSD under control means I can be myself again, whoever that may be, and I have begun waking up for my life rather than to my life. I, not the PTSD, can dictate how I move through the world.

So, six months after the SGB procedure I am still unraveling the snarled knots that muddled the PTSD and the physical pain, and trying to accept the pain as its own entity. In that endeavor, I have posted a single quote on my normally blank refrigerator door from a quadriplegic man named Chad Hymas, "Let go of the illusion that it could have been any different."

There's something to be gained from living through what Dr. Mulvaney's procedure erased. When I find out what it is, I'll be able to let go of the illusion.

Jill Wragg is a retired police officer in Massachusetts.
She can be reached at JKWragg@yahoo.com



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More Quarantine "Cooking"


I decided to make a protein shake for lunch today. My method involves putting cold tap water and protein powder into a metal cocktail shaker because it chills it a bit without needing ice. The powder has a slight vanilla flavor but I normally add a dash of cold espresso from the fridge to punch it up.

I've forgotten to make the espresso several times before so I've improvised by squishing a strawberry or a bite of banana into the concoction to add flavor. This time, I found no espresso, no strawberries, no bananas, not even a single blueberry hiding anywhere, but, wait, that fruit flavored kombucha I bought at the store last week is tasty! So I added about an eighth of a cup of that.

Note to self: quarantining alone for three months kills brain cells.

I not only know that kombucha is fermented but I also know that store-bought kombucha is made with - or injected with - more, um, sparkle. Unfortunately, I didn't recall that I know those things until after I'd combined my ingredients and begun shaking the cocktail mixer. It was actually the strange hiss emanating from the container that started some rusty wheels turning. Sadly, the momentum of the wheels inside my head did not catch up to the momentum of the chemical reaction inside the shaker.

The vigorous shaking of the well-carbonated kombucha ignited an explosion that blew the cover off the shaker, blasting a fruity and attractively pink bubbly liquid halfway across my kitchen, even spattering the mirrored wall behind my stove.

It looked - and smelled - like a fruit-filled fairy princess volcano had erupted in my kitchen.

Magoo and Kenosha scrambled for cover, sidestepping the rapidly spreading, still-sizzling pink lava while I gaped at my pink-glitter-speckled reflection in my pink-glitter-speckled mirror. Even as the other dogs hastily retreated, Xyban came charging in from outside to see what kind of monster had attacked us. He slipped in the liquid cotton candy, spinning out of control before crashing into the refrigerator. The look of panic he'd displayed while ricocheting across the kitchen was replaced by one of disgust as soon as his abrupt deceleration allowed him to survey his surroundings. After shooting me a reproachful glare, he marched back through the mess to resume his guard duties on the deck, punctuating his exit with snorts and loosely formed pink paw prints.

Now my kitchen and dining room look like a Grimm crime scene, like the aftermath of the Big Bad Wolf having an unfortunate reaction to gobbling up Cinderella's Fairy Godmother and leaving a violently purged carnage of simmering, pink pixie puke in his wake.

Sorry, no pics until next of kin is notified.

Jill Wragg is a retired police officer in Massachusetts.
She can be reached at JKWragg@yahoo.com

Jill Wragg

Quarantine Cooking

Someone starting a round-robin-type recipe share asked me for my favorite recipe that requires easy to-find ingredients. I just prepared it for lunch and, except for a minor injury inconvenience incurred during step #4, I thought it worth sharing here:


My Favorite Potato Recipe 

Prep time: 10 - 20 min, depending on your current mental health.
Cook time:  1 hour – if today's raging storms don't knock out your power.
Serves:  One, cuz, yes, I live alone. Well, I have two dogs but no way I'm sharing.


Ingredients

1 large russet potato
Canola oil
Kosher salt


Directions

1) Preheat your tiny, yes-I-live-alone-thank-you toaster oven to 350 degrees.

2) Wash your potato. If you have recently bought a fresh, vibrant potato at a germ-infested store, some sort of soap is optional, albeit disgusting. If, like me, you have sad, dusty potatoes growing sextuplet baby potatoes in the remote, dark reaches of some nearly forgotten kitchen cabinet, you can just use cool running water and perhaps a vegetable brush.

3) Dry your potato thoroughly. Feel free to cuddle it and coo to it if you have not had much human contact recently. Sometimes naming your potato is helpful, too. "Polly" is always a good choice. Or "Paul". I prefer "Pan" to be inclusive.

4)  To allow moisture to escape during baking, use a knife to stab it all over, venting your frustrations about being locked in your home. Use care because most knife assaults result in the perpetrator being cut when her uncontrollable, zealous anger causes her hand to slip down the hilt to the blade mid-stab, resulting in a bloody mess of a potato and sending her back to step #2.
4 1/2) Wait, I mean, to allow moisture to escape during baking, use a dinner fork to poke holes all around the potato.

5) In a bowl or using your hands (in the event that you haven't washed your hands in the last 20 seconds, skipping the bowl will be an opportunity for you to #FlattenTheCurve with personal hygiene because you'll need to wash your hands after this step), lightly coat Polly / Paul / Pan with oil.The recipe calls for Canola Oil but since you're going to gain 50 pounds before this lockdown is over, you can use Coconut Oil for added calories flavor.

6) Sprinkle your slippery potato with kosher salt – or roll it around in the bowl but if it jumps out onto the floor, go back to step #2 – and use soap this time.

7) Gently place the potato directly on a rack that sits in a baking sheet or in an improvised aluminum foil tray.

8) Bake for 1 hour (that's 3 years in Corona-time), or until the skin feels crisp but the potato inside feels soft.

9) To pass the hour, drink wine or a good IPA. Do not limit yourself to one glass.

10) When the potato is cooked, replenish your glass and enjoy the potato as is or with a bunch of healthful toppings – I recommend crushed Oreos and/or a large spoonful of Nutella.




Jill Wragg is a retired police officer in Massachusetts.
She can be reached at JKWragg@yahoo.com






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Dog Drama


I have severe chronic pain from twenty-year-old injuries incurred during my duties as a police officer. The pain keeps me stuck at home most days. Today, I had lots of company. Xyban is a German Shepherd who works as my Service Dog.  Magoo is confirmed to be ½ Chihuahua, ¼ Pug, and ¼ English Bulldog. Kenosha is my roommates' Catahoula mix. And Molly is my aunt's 13-year-old Portuguese Water Dog whose incontinence prescription isn't working. She's leaving a wet, noxious, spreading mess on anything she relaxes on. Within 36 hours of her arrival, I had to decommission my favorite, and only, living room chair twice by using both soap and water, and a leather cleaning kit – twice each – because she leaked fairly prolifically on its seat – yes, twice.

The first accident was no one's fault.  It wasn't Molly's fault; she doesn't know that she leaks. It wasn't my aunt's fault; she gave me Molly's 'pee' pills before she went away for the week. And it wasn't my fault; I didn't have any idea that Molly's incontinence medication wasn't working.

Perhaps being abandoned by her parents was the proverbial straw that broke Molly's bladder control. The first chair-christening by Saint Molly was definitely no one's fault. But the second one? That second christening that occurred after I took counter-pee-measures? That pungent soaking that happened after I vowed to always flip the ottoman into the vulnerable seat of my (only) chair? That time? Yeah, that one was my fault, because of that proverb that goes "once peed-on, twice paranoid".

My defense in the matter of that second mess is a good one though. It happened like this:
At about 8, I sat in my favorite (only) chair to drink coffee while the dogs ate their breakfast. It was an espresso shot so I finished drinking just as they finished eating. We all convened in the kitchen for 'breakfast dessert', a single small dog treat that's a special reward for, I don't know – for being dogs, I guess.

My pain was really bad so I wasn't looking forward to doling out dog treats. Since I keep them in the broken dishwasher, I have to bend over to get them, which never helps the pain.  It also doesn't help that it's been raining forever, or that marijuana and wine don't help – not even together, or that doctors are terrified of prescribing painkillers that actually kill pain. Anyway, after completing my tour as a doggie-treat-dispenser, I didn't feel like going all the way back into the living room because it was at least an extra 5 feet away.  I sat at the dining room table instead.

Magoo, AKA the Wireless Warming Pad, was in my lap within seconds. He'd just assumed his favorite cat-taught pose – the this-is-cozy-and-I-am-NOT-moving pose – when I realized I had forgotten the ottoman-in-the-chair trick to prevent Molly from getting – or wetting – on it. I dreaded having to scrub it a third time but I just couldn't decide if it was worth standing up, and walking all the way over there, and bending over, and lifting the edge of the ottoman, and trying to roll it into the chair seat without moving my back muscles, and, geez, just the utter dread of standing back up to trudge back to the dining room. Ugh. So I consulted my tattered inner Zen which told me to stay in my chair and allow things to play out. Of course, I know now that if my inner Zen had been thinking more clearly, she would have rolled her eyes and told me to just carry Magoo over to that more comfortable chair to simply sit in it to protect it from Molly's excretions. Just like they say, hindsight can be, uh, really, really, annoying.

I convinced myself that the always-attentive-and-always-obedient Molly would remember that I have reminded her countless times to stay out of my chair, and I sighed peacefully, just as the now-rather-quite-a-bit-senile Molly daintily climbed up into my chair.

I said quietly, and firmly, "Molly, get out of that chair."  When almost-deaf, slightly-blind, and rather-quite-a-bit-senile Molly stubbornly – and adorably – refused to move out of the chair, I copied her tactics (and IQ) by also stubbornly – and childishly – refusing to move out of a chair.

I raised my voice slightly, adding a stern tone, "NO. Molly, get out of my chair."  As I began speaking, Kenosha and Xyban, AKA The Hoyden and The Hooligan, both started moving. Reacting to my sterner tone, super-sensitive Kenosha was noisily bolting out the dog door on my right while on my left, Xyban, the poster boy for equanimity, was moaning deeply as he lazily curled over, the way a bored dog would if he thought he might possibly maybe have an itch on some vague part of his body, somewhere.

Looking right and left was a mistake. Big mistake. HUGE. I should have been looking at the 26 lb. Chihuahuan warming pad in my lap that was getting hot, as in hot-under-the-collar, literally. Before I finished the last syllable of my second command, a surly, spitting fury – an incensed Magoo – leapt off my lap, raced across the floor, jumped onto the ottoman, and bared his teeth at Molly while self-righteously snarling, "LISTEN to WHAT the BOSS LADY said BEFORE I MESS UP your PRETTY FACE!"  Molly froze in a panic. She's known Magoo since he was four weeks old. She's been aware of Magoo's "problem" for a while. Magoo has illusions of grandeur. Magoo has a tragic need to control. Magoo thinks he's a cop. That's a problem. A big one. Yes, huge. 

And Magoo's been known to overreact when he polices the other dogs. He did not learn that from my example; his ½ English Bulldog father has serious anger issues. Magoo has also been known to spark citizen unrest when he disregards the government's established rules and regs regarding the police use-of-force continuum. But Magoo has never been a sworn police employee of this particular household. He's more like that creepy, socially-inept guy who got tossed out of the police academy after he insisted that they didn't recognize his brilliance. Unfortunately, it falls to me as the overseeing superintendent to prevent any brawls. But, unlike Magoo, I've had training. I went to two police academies. With the reflexes of a crippled, senior cat, I instinctively reverted to my police training, skillfully thwarting bloody mayhem by jumping up, um, I mean, by moving somewhat faster than a 90-year-old arthritic, and shouting with badly-improvised enthusiasm, "Who wants a cookie?" before darting (I love verbs! They are SO prettily objective.) into the kitchen with as much, er, alacrity as I could muster.

Mission accomplished! Disaster prevented! And there are happy dogs thanks to treats from the Puppy Crack jar.  Enforcer Magoo got a cookie right after he was presented with a Junior Police Chief Badge in front of a small, semi-official canid gathering. Every one of those civilian dogs was drooling with envy – and probably with impatience from waiting for cookies. Molly got a cookie because she got off my chair quickly without releasing any unpleasant liquids into its seat cushion. Xyban got a cookie because, well, because he was just lying around lustily snuffling his . . . well, because he was just so amazingly engaged and focused while the others were itching to start a pit-fight. Kenosha got a cookie because fair is fair and she is part of the pack, even if she's the part that handles pack-crises by running away screaming louder than a five-year-old girl whose ice cream just fell to the sidewalk.

Oh, and there's a happy human, too, because I grabbed a beer for myself without having to walk an extra 5 feet.    
      
#WinWin                         
#MagooTheJerk
#MmmmmBeeer
#It's5pmSomewhere




Jill Wragg is a retired police officer in Massachusetts.
She can be reached at JKWragg@yahoo.com
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Covid Currency


Thanks to my chronic pain issue, I do a lot of shopping through Amazon. This week, Amazon has been wiped out but, luckily, I already had the things I normally order. Well, except Nutella. Figuring the grocery stores are probably out of Nutella, I checked Amazon but didn't expect to find any unless it was being scalped at $40. a jar.  It was quite an experience scrolling through all of the item listings that had pictures but no prices because they are not available – lotions, soaps, cleaning products, canned food, shelf-stable milk, bottles juice, basically everything, including jars of Nutella.

But I remembered that last year, I had ordered a set of tiny glass jars (.88 oz) of Nutella, partly because they were adorable and partly because I wanted to use the glass jars for storage of small items. I was surprised to see that a few of the sets were still available, and at their normal price! 

They arrived today. The photo makes it look like I'm hoarding – which, by the way, I abhor – but the coin on top of the bottom row shows how small they are. Even at that size, I am all set for a long isolation period.


I'm not accustomed to posting on Facebook so I sent a text out to friends with the Nutella photo. Within seconds, my neighbor texted, offering a roll of toilet paper for some Nutella. I told her she was welcome to the Nutella free of charge and since her stepson happened to be out for a walk, I met him by my driveway with a small bag to hand some over. Don't worry, we kept our distance – I put the bag down and stepped away from it.

About 30 minutes later, my neighbor announced that she'd left toilet paper on my front step. In fact, it was hanging on my front door handle.


I opened the door to grab it. Unfortunately, my front door handle slopes down toward the step and my front yard slopes down toward the road so when I opened the door from the inside, the roll fell off of the handle, and onto the step, and under a bush, and rolled down the front yard with me chasing it toward the street in full view of all my neighbors.

It was like "On Top Of Spaghetti" only it wasn't a meatball!




Jill Wragg is a retired police officer in Massachusetts.
She can be reached at JKWragg@yahoo.com

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Carver's Christmas Eve




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Carver's Christmas Eve

written by Jill Wragg
narrated by 
Carver Martin Gibney

Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, cuz I ate that mouse.
The stockings were hung on the high mantel-shelf 
Where I couldn't get them, not without exerting myself.

I was curled up in the leather chair, all cozy and warm,
When up on the roof there arose a terrible storm!
I waited for the stupid dog to start flapping her jaw 
But she was under my chair, covering her ears with her paws!

It was all up to me, I knew that at once. 
Never could count on that mutt - she's such a dunce.
So I tore up the leather (oops) in my dash to look
After I shredded the curtains, I beheld a crook!

It was a tiny little man, red and fat as an apple.
I flexed my claws in preparation for battle.
As I bared my teeth and turned around 
The burglar slid down the chimney in a single bound.

When that fat little man began eating cookies with relish 
I decided Cat Scratch Fever was how he would perish.
As he stuffed the last cookie into his mouth from the tray,
I crept up behind him, a lion stalking his prey.

Just then the dog farted - that dog's a worthless brute.
The fat guy turned and saw me - he put his hand in his suit!
My life flashed before my eyes. I thought I was dead.
He had a gun -  I knew it! But then, instead . . . 

As he swung his hand toward me, I braced for the shot
But the thing in his hand was not what I thought.
It twitched, and it jumped, and it swung on a string
And then that home invader whistled and started to sing,

"Here kitty. Here kitty. It's a mouse with catnip."
I felt my murderous resolve beginning to slip!
I tried to stay the course, after all I AM a cat
But nobody, no, no one, no one can resist THAT.

Next thing I knew I was acting the fool.
I swatted and batted. I even started to drool.
It wasn't pretty but I'll tell you right now
I wasn't even embarrassed when I started to meow.

I'd intended to maul him, to maim his fat face.
He'd interrupted my sleep and invaded my space!
But by the time he left I was waving goodbye.
I was smiling, and stretching, and closing my eyes.

I think I was stoned. Everything was a fog. 
I'll never live down that I hugged that dumb dog.
I can't wait till next year when that burglar comes back.
I'm going to be waiting  . . . for some more kitty crack.






Jill Wragg is a retired police officer in Massachusetts.
She can be reached at JKWragg@yahoo.com


Officer Mary Gibney
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